June 29, 2003

I've been stuck at the same weight for 8 days. The loss I had last week happened Friday night, then nothing after that. Argh!

Posted by addlepated at 06:49 PM

Chest: -0.0 inches (-2.5 total)
Waist: -0.0 inches (-3.5 total)
Hips: -0.5 inches (-2.5 total)
Thigh: -0.5 inches (-1.5 total)

Posted by addlepated at 06:35 PM

Thursday calories = 1067
Friday calories = 1133
Saturday calories = 1184

Posted by addlepated at 06:32 PM
June 26, 2003

I went to the doctor for a check-in today. According to his scale, I have lost 16 pounds since May 30! Now if only I can break through this plateau I've been on for since Saturday...

Posted by addlepated at 03:49 PM

Wednesday calories = 997

Posted by addlepated at 03:47 PM
June 25, 2003

Tuesday calories = 1109

Posted by addlepated at 03:51 AM
June 24, 2003

Monday calories = 1281
Monday exercise = -328 (major sweeping!)
net total = 953

Posted by addlepated at 03:06 AM
June 23, 2003

In this entry, I expressed my frustrations and how miserable I was feeling because of the reduction in calories. Now, 2 weeks later, I'm very comfortable. I'm not having the horrible cravings anymore (although I don't think I'll make the chocolate cake again soon; the other day I was ready to take a bath in it). Hub can eat bacon and mayo sandwiches and it doesn't bother me. Seeing the results on the scale (15 pounds now) is very definitely positive reinforcement. I'm much more clearheaded than I was, although whether it's from the vitamins or because I've gotten used to less calories I can't say. In fact, I've been having a hard time eating enough calories. I'd hate to go into 'starvation mode' so I'm trying to stay above 950 or so calories a day. Sometimes I have to almost force myself to eat something before bed to add some calories in - tonight it was a PB&J sandwich.

Today I tried on some shorts that I ordered about a month ago and were too small. I'd never gotten around to returning them. They fit now!

Posted by addlepated at 02:03 AM

Sunday calories = 1065

Posted by addlepated at 01:55 AM
June 22, 2003

Saturday calories = 1149

Posted by addlepated at 01:47 AM

Friday calories = 1098

Posted by addlepated at 01:46 AM
June 20, 2003

Chest: -0.5 inches (-2.5 total)
Waist: -2.0 inches (-3.5 total)
Hips: -0.0 inches (-2 total)
Thigh: -1.0 inches (-1 total)

Posted by addlepated at 09:58 PM

Thursday calories = 1108

For dinner I had salmon roasted with asparagus and fennel and a ton of garlic, with crispy basil polenta cakes. Made it myself and damn if it wasn't good. 470 calories.

Then I took a box of triple fudge cake mix and a can of diet chocolate soda, mixed the two, and baked it like cupcakes. You wouldn't believe - really light and moist. 180 calories each.

Lunch was a cucumber sandwich with wasabi mayo and onion, and a butternut squash mashed with some butter and brown sugar. 348 calories. Then various snacks, mostly popcorn.

Tomorrow's check-in day. Wish me luck.

Posted by addlepated at 03:12 AM
June 19, 2003

Wednesday calories = 1105

Posted by addlepated at 03:22 PM
June 18, 2003

Tuesday calories = 962

Posted by addlepated at 10:57 PM
June 17, 2003

Monday calories = 1180

Posted by addlepated at 08:29 PM
June 16, 2003

Sunday calories = 1003

Posted by addlepated at 02:42 PM
June 15, 2003
Shrimpy calories

I can't believe it, but I've checked three different places and they all agree: large shrimp are 4 calories each. This can't possibly be true, can it?

Oh, shrimpy heaven!

Posted by addlepated at 11:09 AM

Saturday calories = 1112

It was a stretch. I finally decided to have a glass of whole milk and Carnation Instant Breakfast tonight to add some calories.

Posted by addlepated at 02:59 AM
June 14, 2003

Calories for Friday: 1223

Posted by addlepated at 01:49 AM
June 13, 2003

Chest: -2 inches
Waist: -1.5 inches
Hips: -2 inches
Thigh: 0 change

Posted by addlepated at 01:43 PM

Thursday calories = 1131

Posted by addlepated at 01:40 PM
June 12, 2003

Wednesday calories = 1167

Posted by addlepated at 01:10 PM

Hormones suck. I woke up this morning weighing 1.5 lbs more than I did last night. I knew it was coming but it sucks anyway.

Posted by addlepated at 12:16 AM
June 11, 2003

Tuesday calories: 1149

Posted by addlepated at 03:26 AM
June 10, 2003

Monday calories = 1134

Posted by addlepated at 02:31 AM
June 09, 2003
Calories, oops

Forgot to post them last night!

Calories for Sunday = 1136

Posted by addlepated at 07:14 PM
June 08, 2003

Saturday calories = 1136

Posted by addlepated at 02:13 AM
June 07, 2003

Friday calories = 1107

Posted by addlepated at 02:35 AM
June 06, 2003
The long road ahead

Right now I'm at the beginning of the road, looking towards a horizon that's too far away to see clearly. The journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step, to be sure. The first step is liberating; you have made the effort to start and know that someday you will reach your destination. But what of the tenth step, or twentieth, when it starts to sink in that you may be traveling for years before you get to your goal? Those are discouraging times, just as it will be discouraging to see that there's a big hill in front of you that needs climbing.

This is why people set small goals for themselves when losing weight, so that the forest doesn't get overlooked for the trees. If I have 100 lbs to lose, that number starts to seem overwhelming. If I think to myself that I'm going to lose 25 more pounds, and that I'm already almost 1/3 the way there, and then I'll buy myself some stuff from Amazon, that's easier to deal with.

I've been at this diet for a week now and my body's still trying to get used to the drastic reduction in calories. I should be taking some vitamins but I've been too foggy to remember to buy some. My stomach's been in a state of upset and I feel out of it. I was hoping that I would get used to it by now. I wonder if I will get used to it, or if this feeling will be something I'll just need to deal with until I lose the weight I'd like to. I really want to go to the gym, but right now I'm so trashed that the mere idea of walking to the car wears me out.

I am the Little Engine that Can, dammit.

Posted by addlepated at 09:20 PM
Reason number 1

So I can get health insurance that doesn't cost $450/month.

Posted by addlepated at 03:36 PM

Thursday calories = 1010

Posted by addlepated at 03:03 PM
June 05, 2003

Calories for Wednesday = 1139

Posted by addlepated at 03:12 AM
June 04, 2003

Tuesday calories = 1253

Posted by addlepated at 01:09 AM
June 03, 2003

Monday calories = 1210

Posted by addlepated at 02:01 AM
June 02, 2003

Sunday calories: 1190

Posted by addlepated at 01:56 AM
June 01, 2003

Saturday calories = 940.

Posted by addlepated at 03:44 AM